Up for your consideration is a once in a lifetime opportunity at one of if not the most historically significant Zane Grey letters to be found to date. It is love letter that was sent in 1902 to his then lover who would become his wife Lina Roth.
It goes into great detail about who he was as a young man, his depression, desire for fame, feelings of his short comings as a person. You can see the beginnings of the prolific talented writer and sportsman he was going to become. We translated the best we could but will leave it up to you to explore yourself. The photos show the front half then the second half and finally the full page opened back. The ending of the letter is signed Pearl, his given first name.
Below we have the full letter as we translated to the best of our ability. We would be happy to answer any questions you may have. I don't exactly what was wrong with me but I imagine it was the usual case of blues. Why I should always make you feel as badly is something beyond me. You do make me angry sometimes.When you asked me if I hated you you shocked me. What have I ever done to make you think that?
You tell me to look at the bright side of things. Me dear there is no bright side for me. You will say this is absurd. I can prove that it is not. Were my temperament and disposition such that I could be satisfied and content with work, and work all the time, without any real life, there might be a bright side to things.But I love to be free. I cannot change my spots.
The ordinary man is satisfied with a moderate income, a home, wife, children and all that. That is all right and just what a man ought to be. I want to be somebody. Here again I fall short, a man who wants fame should not allow anything or anybody to stand between him and it. Why have I not married one of the several wealthy girls I have known?
I don't know but I have not. I know one woman who would be glad to have me give up my profession and spend the time with her abroad, or in the moods, or in what pleased me, whether study or not. But I could not marry her. Is not because I care for you, because I had the same chance before I ever knew you and cared for you, and I could not do it. What it will come to I have no idea.
I do not mean to hurt you. I cannot imagine any greater happiness than to have a sweet and intelligent woman, as you are, care for me, and I know that if my circumstances had (crossed out) we would be happy together. But it is not now possible and seems to me never will be. That alone, besides all the other things, and they are bad enough would make us wretched at times. There is nothing else to do but go ahead and do my best, and that I shall do.But the hopelessness of it sometimes makes me sick. Last night you failed, for the first time, to understand me. This item is in the category "Collectibles\Autographs\Historical".
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